“God created people. He died for us to show how much he loves us; he sacrifices his self on a cross to take all our sins. And God wants us to show love to one another like the way he showed his love to us”

To love without expecting in return is the best love of all!!

/glhennz

/glhennz

Crush mo talaga sya?.. my friend asked me.
Wag ka kayang maingay, mamaya may makarinig sa ‘tin eh,
And so what? crush mo lang naman sya eh, at wala naman masama. Sabi ng kaibigan ko habang nakangiti sa akin. And besides okey lang yun, I think bagay kayong dalawa ng crush mo!!

But he has a girlfriend! I answered. At saka maganda at sexy, malungkot kong sabi sabay yuko ng ulo.
Ano ka ba?.. matalino ka, maganda ka rin naman eh! Simple nga lang yung ganda mo unlike sa girlfriend nya na laging my pintura sa mukha, and besides yung girlfriend nya maganda lang pero hindi matalino! sagot ng kaibigan ko habang ngumunguya ng burger.
And how did you know that? Tanong ko. Napatingin sya sa akin sabay sabi,
Well, halata naman sa itsura na maganda lang pero walang brain. She assured.

I stared to her while thinking.

Totoong maganda yung girlfriend ng crush ko, sometimes I feel insecure whenever I saw them together, I feel that im not belong to this world. Yah I admit napakababa ng confident ko sa sarili ko. Mabuti na lang at nandyan yong kaibigan ko para palakasin palagi yung loob ko. Matalino raw ako, yun ang madalas na sinasabi ng mga tao sa akin. Pero sa totoo lang nagsasawa na ako sa ganong word. Naisip ko tuloy wala na bang ibang adjectives na babagay sa akin maliban sa salitang matalino?.. My family always telling me that I am beautiful inside and out, pero syempre iba pa rin pag galing sa ibang tao. But like what they said be thankful for what you have right now.

I was walking alone on the corridor of our building, and when I turned to the right side surprisingly someone bumped on me. I lost a scale so I suddenly fell down. I found myself lying on the floor with my things scattered around me. I was really shocked that’s why I didn’t notice the guy who bumped on me. Then I was surprised when someone talking with familiar voice. When I looked up, I saw a guy looking right to me while extending his hands to help me to stand up. I felt struck for awhile, I was thinking if it is real or a dream. Then I heard the voice of my friend calling my name, when I looked back I saw her running while coming to me. She helped me to fix myself. Ngayon ko lang napansin na marami na palang students na nakitingin sa amin at nakakita sa nangyari.

Then he asked me for the second time.
Are you alright? Im sorry Im in a rush that’s why I did not noticed you coming. He apologized deeply.
I cannot look at him straightly because I was so shy of what happened. I feel my face getting hot and red. Mabuti na lang at nandyan yung friend ko to back me up.

Alam mo Mister, mas ok siguro kung tutulungan mo nalang kaming dumampot sa mga nahulog na gamit ng kaibigan ko. Pagtataray ng friend ko.

Narinig ko syang tumawa sabay yuko habang dinadampot ang iba kong gamit na nahulog.

O ayan, sorry ulit ha sabi nya habang nakangiti.

Inabot nya sa akin yung mga gamit ko na nahulog sa pagkakabangga namin. Habang inaabot ko yung mga gamit ko I feel that my hands are trembling and colds. Im nervous coz I know he’s staring at me.

Thank you. I just said.
Ok lets go, yaya ng kaibigan ko sa akin. She pulled me away from that place. Pag lingon ko sa lugar kung saan namin sya iniwan ng kaibigan ko, nakita ko na papalayo na rin sya.

Hay naku friend, ano ka ba naman! Kung hindi pa ako dumating malamang bato ka na!
Sorry.. hingi ko ng paumanhin sa kanya.
Ano ka ba! Wag ka sa akin mag-sorry no!
Ay oo nga pala dapat sabihin ko, thank you. Sabay ngiti ko.

Hay grabeh! Di ko na alam kung ano gagawin ko sa’yo eh, napaka mahiyain mo na kung tutuusin theres nothing to be shy. Okey nandun na tayo, sya yung crush mo! Pero friend don’t make it obvious naman. Kulang na lang matunaw ka sa kinatatayuan mo eh. Sermon sa akin ng friend ko.
I forgot to apologized too.. nanghihinayang na sabi ko.
Nakalimutan? O talagang umurong yang dila mo? Panghuhuli nya.
Natawa ako sa sinabi nya kasi alam kong may point sya don.

That night I can’t sleep, iniisip ko pa rin yung nangyari sa corridor kanina sa school namin. I remembered his face staring at my face. Nanghihinayang ako dahil hindi man lang kami nakapagusap ng matagal. Kung sana hindi umatake itong sakit ko na pagkamahiyain, eh di sana nakapag-usap pa kami ng matagal, e di sana nakapagpakilala ako sa kanya at ganon din sya. Kaso ang tanong, will he be interested to know about me. O baka ako lang ang nangangarap ng ganon.
That night I decided to write a letter. I wrote a letter, revealing my feelings to him. Atleast on my letter I can tell all my feelings for him. How much I like him, how much I care for him and how much I love him. After I read my letter, I prayed na sana magustuhan din nya ako. I putted it inside my book. I was still thinking about him when I didn’t notice that I fell asleep.
Tanghali na ng magising ako the next morning, kaya nagmamadali ako na maligo dahil mali-late ako sa school, I forgot to alarm my clock last night kaya hindi agad ako nagising ng maaga. Nasa school na ako ng tumunog ang cellphone ko, nag-text sa akin yung friend ko. Nang pumasok ako sa room for our first subject nakahinga ako ng maluwag ng makita ko na wala pa yung professor namin. I sit on a chair next to the vacant chair of my friend.

What took you so long? Kanina pa ako naghihintay sa’yo ah. I texted you.
Yah I received it, nandito na ko nung mabasa ko yong text mo. I forgot to alarm my clock last night that’s why I did not wake up early in this morning. I explained.
So it only means na napuyat ka? Hmmm.. wait wala naman tayong exam today para mapuyat ka at ma-late ka ng gising. Unless nagpuyat ka talaga for something…
Uyyy.. iniisip mo sya kagabi no? yung nangyari kahapon? Pangbubuko nya sa akin.
Hindi ah! I refused.
Asus! Kunwari ka pa, eh ayan yong ebidensya, sabay turo sa mata ko.
Hah? Bakit anong meron sa mata ko? Kinuha ko agad yong salamin ko sa loob ng bag ko.
Ha ha ha ha.. wag ka ng tumanggi huli ka na eh. Pang-aasar pa nya sa akin.

Sumimangot ako at hinampas ko sya ng panyong hawak ko.
Eeeeeeeeeeeee.. tili nya, napalingon sa amin yong iba naming classmate.
ssshhhh.. ano ka ba, saway ko sa kanya.
Hahahaha!! E bakit ka nagba-blushed? Kunwari ka pa! tamaan ka ng kidlat dyan sige ka!

I would still speak when suddenly our professor came up and entered the room. After a long hours of discussing nagpaalam na yong professor namin. Lumabas kami ng kaibigan ko ng room para mag-meryenda sa canteen. Hindi na rin ako nakapag-almusal dahil sa pagmamadali ko. Malapit na kami sa canteen ng biglang napatigil ang kaibigan ko.

Naku! Nakalimutan ko yong notebook na hinihiram ko sa classmate natin, teka babalikan ko muna sa room..
I’ll go with you.
No need, sandali lang naman ako eh, sa loob mo na lang ako antayin. Hanap ka na rin ng mauupuan natin sa loob.
Ok sige, bilisan mo ha, para sabay na tayong umorder.

Tumakbo pabalik ng room ang kaibigan ko while I start walking going to canteen. As I enter inside the canteen I look for a vacant table and chair right away. I was fixing my things when I heard voices over the door of the canteen. I take a look to see who they are. I saw my crush with his friends, we suddenly looked at each other at the same time. I don’t know what to do, bigla akong na- conscious sa itsura ko, nakalimutan kong makapag powder man lang before lumabas ng room. Umiwas agad ako ng tingin and I try to keep myself busy to hide my embarassment.
I heard that they sit next to the table I chose. I glanced back to their table and I saw him busy talking to his friend. I saw my friend coming over the window of the canteen. Kumaway ako para mapansin nya kung saan ako nakapwesto. Napangiti sya ng makita nya ako, at mas lalo syang napangiti ng mapalingon sya sa katabing mesa namin.

Ang tagal mo? I asked.
Eh kasi hinanap ko rin sya eh, wala na sya sa room nung bumalik ako yun pala hinahanap rin nya ako, parehas kaming naghahanapan. She explained.
Ano, nahiram mo naman? Tanong ko.
Hmm hmmm.. tango nya sa akin, sabay lingon ng palihim sa katabing mesa.
Ano ka ba! We might be obvious.. saway ko.
Ikaw lang hindi ako noh, she said. If I know kinikilig ka na dyan sa kinauupuan mo. Sabay tawa ng mahina.
Let’s order of food, nagugutom na ako eh. Iwas ko sa kanya.
Ok! ok.. kaw naman di ka na mabiro.

Naunang tumayo yung nasa kabilang mesa at umorder ng pagkain sa counter. My crush left alone on the table, busy with his fone. I stared at him for a moment.

Hoy lets go! She said near on my ear. Mamaya mahuli ka pa nyan na nakatitig sa kanya eh di mapahiya ka.
I get blushed and start to walk to order of food with my friend.

Busog ka noh?.. tanong ng friend ko habang nag-aabang kami ng masasakyan ng hapon na iyon.
Saan? I asked.
Eh di don sa kinain natin sa canteen kanina. Plus nandon pa yong crush mo kaya sobrang busog ka! Im sure hindi mo malunok ng mabuti yong kinakain mo kasi you’re so conscious lalo na sa pagnguya mo na baka pangit eh di turn off yun sa’yo!!
Sira ka talaga! Natatawa kong sabi.

Naunang makasakay ng sasakyan ang kaibigan ko. Habang nagaabang ako ng masasakyan that afternoon nang bigla na lang umulan ng malakas. I forgot to bring my umbrella kaya agad akong sumilong sa waiting shed ng school namin. I was waiting there for almost an hour at wala pa rin akong masakyan. Gusto ko ng maglakad papuntang sakayan pero hindi ako makaalis dahil sa sobrang lakas ng ulan. Malapit na rin dumilim at wala ng gaanong mga estudyanteng naglalakad. I still wait when suddenly a car stopped in front of where I am standing. Kinabahan ako kasi familiar sa akin yung kotse na huminto sa harapan ko. Then the window opened down and I saw him again smiling at me.

Hi.. im sorry but I saw you alone, medyo delikado kaya naisip ko na isabay na lang kita since hindi ka pa nakakasakay. Then he smiled at me.
Ahmm.. magkaiba yata tayo ng way.. pagdadahilan ko.
No its ok. I’ll just drop you off kung saan ka bababa. Sige na.. pamimilit nya.
I don’t have a choice kundi pumayag kahit na sobrang lakas ng kabog ng dibdib ko. Hindi ko maisip kung ano ang maaari naming pagusapan sa loob ng kanyang sasakyan ng hindi nya mahahalata yung real feelings ko for him.
O.. okey. Thanks..
Ok wait me there, lalabas ako para payungan kita.
Ha?.. napatunganga ako. My gosh!! He’s so gentleman. Sabi ko sa sarili ko.
Habang papalapit sya sa kinatatayuan ko lalong lumalakas yong kaba ko.

Lets go. He said.
Oh my!! Sana hindi nya marinig yong kabog ng dibdib ko, nakakahiya. I secretly prayed.

Naisip ko na sana recitation na lang, mas ok pa sa akin hindi pa ako kinakabahan ng ganito. Makita ko lang sya kinakabahan na ako, ano pa kaya ngayon na makakasama ko sya at ihahatid pa nya ako. Baka hindi na ako makapagsalita ng matino. Nakakahiya! Feeling ko nabubobo ako kapag kaharap ko na sya.

Basa ka. He said abruptly.
Hah?.. nagulat ako kaya nahulog ko yong libro na hawak ko. I bowed to get my book on the car’s floor when I heard him laughing kaya napalingon agad ako sa kanya habang hawak ko na sa kamay ko ang libro.
I sat straightly and look at him sideway.
Ba-bakit ? I asked.
Sabi ko basa ka, here’s the towel. Sabay abot nya ng towel sa akin. Napatitig ako sa hawak nya.
Don’t worry malinis yan. Nakangiting sabi nya.
Napahiya ako kaya agad kong inabot yong hawak nya.
Thanks. I said while blushing.
Ano ba itong nangyayari sa akin! Engkanto ba ‘tong lalaking ‘to sabay lingon ng palihim sa kanya. Ang gwapo naman nito para maging alagad ng dilim, sabi ko sa sarili ko.

Gusto mo ng music? Tanong nya sa akin.
Napatingin ako sa kanya, sabay tango.
He opened the car stereo.
I was thinking kung saan kita nakita before then naalala ko ikaw pala yung girl na nakabungguan ko the last day. Im sorry again. He said and he glanced at me.
Ok ka na ba? He asked again.
Kanina okey ako ngayon hindi na kasi andyan ka, gusto ko sanang sabihin buti nalang iba lumabas sa bibig ko.
Ah.. yes im ok. I said.
Katahimikan ulit.
Ikaw rin yong nakita ko kanina sa canteen, kasama mo pa nga yong friend mo diba? He added.
Napalingon ako sa kanya. Nakita ko na nakatingin sya sa akin.
Wala akong masabi kaya tumango nalang ako. Ngumiti sya sa akin and he concentrate again to his driving. Napatingin naman ako sa labas ng bintana ng kotse habang napapangiti.

Yesss!! Sigaw ng utak ko. Naalala nya na ako yung babae na nakabungguan nya, atleast worth it naman yung pagkakabungguan namin, kung hindi dahil dun hindi nya ako mapapansin sa loob ng canteen at hindi nya ako maisasabay sa loob ng sasakyan nya. Thanks to my stupidity, bulong ko sa sarili ko.
Naihatid na nya ako sa bahay namin pero hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala. Pagka pasok na pagka pasok ko sa loob ng kwarto ko naglululundag ako sa sobrang tuwa. I can’t believe that this is happening to me right now, I feel like I won in a lotto.
I’m lying on my bed when I remember the letter I made last night, I rise up to get the book. When I opened the pages of my book I can’t find the letter, I suddenly feel nervous. I checked again but I didn’t see the letter. I get my bag to check if I just misplaced it on my bag, but still nothing. I think of the places in where I putted my book before I went back home. I checked it also while I am on the waiting shed that afternoon before I ride to his car and… oh my!! No!! this can’t be happen! Hindi kaya nalaglag yung letter ko nung damputin ko yung book ko na nalaglag sa loob ng kotse nya? I was talking to myself, but I can’t be wrong I saw my letter bago ako sumakay sa kotse nya.
Paano kung nalaglag nga iyon sa loob ng kotse nya? Paano kung makita nya yun at mabasa, I putted his name on the letter kaya malalaman nyang para sa kanya yun! My Gosh! Ano na lang ang mukhang ihaharap ko sa kanya kapag nagkita ulit kami.
Next day morning I told my friend to what happened last night. And I also admit to her about the letter I made that I’ve lost. She was so shocked after I told the whole story.
Are you sure that he’s the one who got your letter? Have you asked him already? My friend asked.
No I didn’t. I feel that I don’t have a face to face him after what happened last night. Kung sya nga ang nakapulot nun, im sure he was laughing on me right now. Nakakahiya talaga.
And how can you be sure that he will going to do that? Tanong ng kaibigan ko.
Ofcourse he doesn’t have a feelings on me, what will I do? I asked her.
Well, all we have to do is just wait until he approach you about that. She said while tapping her hands at my back.
I didn’t notice him the whole day, my friend told me that he did not go to school on that day. On the next day, hindi ko na naman sya nakita, hindi ko maiwasan na magtaka why he’s absent for almost 4 days.
Hey! Its ok, malay mo naman may ibang inaasikaso yung tao kaya umabsent sya ng ilang days, pakonswelo ng kaibigan ko, who knows baka mamaya makasabay mo pa paguwi just like before. Sabi nya sabay ngiti ng may kahulugan.
Ngumiti na lang ako kahit na nalulungkot ako. Sana nga.. sana nga makita ko na sya, I missed him so much, my mind said.

Nauna ng umuwi yung kaibigan ko that day dahil my dadaanan pa raw sya kaya mag-isa na lang ako na naglalakad palabas ng campus namin. Niyaya ako ng ibang kaibigan ko na mag stroll muna sa kalapit na park ng school namin kaso tumanggi ako, sinabi ko na lang na masama ang pakiramdam ko and I want to go home kaya naintindihan naman nila ako.
I was looking down kaya hindi ko napansin yung taong papalapit sa akin. Napahinto ako bigla ng maramdaman ko na sasalubungin ako ng taong yun. I looked up and suddenly I feel my world stop for a moment when I knew kung sino ang taong nasa harapan ko at that moment. I was so speechless kaya sya yung unang nagsalita.

Hi.. bati nya sa akin.
I didn’t reply coz I’m still looking on his face. May kinuha sya sa loob ng bulsa ng kanyang pants at iniabot sa akin. I was totally shocked when I saw a familiar paper right on his hand. Yan yung letter na nawawala sa pagkakasipit sa loob ng libro ko, tama nga ako na sya ang nakapulot nun. Sabi ko sa sarili ko.

I got this under my car’s chair, I thought It was for somebody when I accidentally noticed my name inside the paper, kaya binasa ko. At first naguluhan ako until na mabasa ko lahat. And I knew that the letter was really for me. He said.
I didn’t speak coz I don’t know what to say, napayuko na lang ako sa sobrang hiya.
Im sorry, it was my fault actually. Kung sinabi ko na sa’yo dati pa e di sana hindi ka na gumawa ng love letter para sa akin. Nakangiti nyang sabi.
Naguluhan ako sa sinabi nya kaya napatingin ako sa kanya.
Your fault?.. how?.. I just only said to him.
Tinitigan nya ako ng matagal kaya medyo na-concious ako. Nagulat na lang ako ng bigla nyang inabot ang aking kamay at hinawakan.
Akala ko ba ako ang manhid? Sabi nya sa akin habang nakangiti.
Napatitig ako ng matagal sa kanya ng unti unting napangiti ako. And I said to myself, thanks to my friend kung hindi sa pagiging dilang anghel nya hindi ito ulit mangyayari.. I must be thank her later after…

—-the end—-

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Life beComes mEaniNgfUl oNLy iF..

- wE suRviVe hUrts oF thE pAst

- wE liVe fuLLy oN tHe pResEnt

- wE viEw wiTh hoPe

- God is tHe ceNter of oUr liFe…

so goodluck…

- you always dont wanna be the first to do the step to be with someone..

- you always try to hide your feelings..

- you are afraid of telling someone he/she is special..

- you are afraid to love someone when you think cant love you back..

- you are so aware of what others think that you cant do what you want..

- you are not happy..

- in the end, you lose everything without even trying to have it..

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like an ague

the man that i possessed

a selfish feeling as i depict myself

never realized you will get hurt

the way i run your life

i know i’ve been a fool

a muzzy and a vile soul, i am

just giving you an adversity

like i hold your heart as if i grasp you tight

never realize you will get rebel

like a child that molded tightly

now you left me

beneath a melancholy night, alone in a chaos

an agony that chills me inside

drowning myself to my own tears,

how do i get you back in my arms?

to make sorry and revive your love..

how can i bring you back?

and make you mine again..

to cure the wound that i made immensely

and to hide a cicatrize

muster your heart entirely

and now how can i wash my entity

that failed in a naked sooth

how can i accept the fact that you’re gone apart..

and this is all be…